3 days since i've last blogged.


i must admit.. these past few days,
it have been sheer madness to me.
i've like been crying the whole night.
imagine, the moment you come home,
& i meant, everytime you come home,
you're being called,
a "cheater"?
how would you feel?
hurt? upset? broken?
thats how i would feel.

we used to quick way out.
yes, we did. have you ever loved us?
instead, you practically SHAMED us.
i thought that you will feel remorseful..
instead, you're filled with anger, filled with rage.
shamed us.. how cruel can you be?
i mean seriously..

you never did asked us why we did that thing,
to make you feel upset.
no, you never asked.
you just told us how you would feel.
thats just simply plain unfair..
the reason was because, you were too harsh on us.
you use vulgar,
you somtimes even resort to violence.
that, i cannot accept.
& stop brainwashing bryan,
get the fuck off bryan, he's innocent.. he's only like, 6? wth.

i wanna say something.
if you people have any comments bout my size,
please refrain from telling me?
some people just wont know the feeling to be hurt by someone's remarks.

i'm in despair.
i hate going home nowadays.
i'm starting to hate school.. alot.
i'm beginning to think of committing suicide.
& i'm thinking of leaving home..
adults just dont understand me..

i hate maths.. i cant catch up in class anymore.. i felt like i'm a huge failure.
i need coaching, but not from him.
i want tuition.. any recommendation?


ms lim told us bout the thru-train thing that our class is taking.
she said mrs teo was not very impressed with our term 1 results.
& said, if this continues, we're going to take our N lvls.
seriously, i think taking N lvls before O lvls is much more better..
at least you got the experience.
after hearing this,
i felt like ending my life.
i'm so god damn fucked up.


i'm sorry for being so ugly,
last but not least,
i'm sorry for being so fat.
i'm sorry people out there..